I casually used porn for masturbation for awhile and it really was not a problem,but then I decided to try another webcam sight and this time I opened my own webcam for the world to see.This became an instant obsession and before long it was all I could think about.My attempts to perform for some woman were mostly feeble and extremely time consuming.
I have also been unfaithful to my wife in the past including a visit to a massage parlor a few years back ,which she also found out about.
My wife monitors my every move,she checks out my internet history,and even GPS's my phone when I go out.
I'm tired of playing cat and mouse with her and must stop all this activity now or risk losing my marriage. I'm struggling too, and I wish there was an easy answer. It's been 6 days since I posted,also 6 days since I've looked at porn or cam sights. I'm not sure why but I can't (or don't want) to even try to ask my wife for sex.
My suggestion would be to find a therapist or counselor in your area that specializes in sex addiction. Possibly I'm just afraid of being rejected,which is a major trigger for me.
I am 49 year old married man with an obsession for live internet web cam sights and its ruining my marriage.
It all started 30 or so years ago(I've been married for 28),with magazines,which progressed to VHS videos, DVD's and finally internet porn.While watching one of my favorite porn sight I clicked on an ad for a live webcam sight with girls and couples in various states of undress and performing sex acts live for tokens.I became obsessed with the sight and eventually my wife discovered what I was up to and forced me to give it up.I'm not sure what to do next in repairing our relationship and making our sex life what it was. I know I want to give up porn ,but I still need to have a healthy sex life. I found the most exciting part was exposing myself to an attractive female stranger.I was addicted to webcam sites for about a year, spending 0-300/month. I found it hard to masturbate to JUST porn, without it leading to a webcam site to finish.I took the following step to rid my life of webcams, so far so good! If they are built into the monitor, get a monitor without one.